Milk Chocolate

I worked two eight hour shifts this week on Tuesday and Thursday. Eight to four, both days.

The shifts passed pretty similarly - I stood around the coffee house, suffering under once circumstance or another, looking forward to 4:01 pm.

Tuesday was too busy, Thursday too slow.

Both left me exhausted.

And on both days I looked forward to returning to my apartment for,

a) Lots and lots of yummy food

and

b) Lots and lots of watching Game of Thrones

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Standing behind that counter all day, this combination of salt, fat, sugar, and HBO seemed like absolutely the peak of human experience.

I could not wait to get home.

And of course, for about 20 minutes, it was amazing.

Three hours later, though - less amazing.

I was left feeling scarcely better than when I was behind the counter, and just as trapped.

Like milk chocolate, TV and junk food leave me wanting more, even when I already have a stomach ache.

And I consume junk food by the pound and I prefer to watch one hour TV drama episodes four at a time.

You can imagine, then, how easily my 8 hours of evening on Tuesday and Thursday slipped right by.

Worse yet, those evenings' ennui leaked into the next morning.

As I type this, my nose is wrinkling up.

The imagine of me lying on my bed for hours and hours, staring blanking into a brightly lit screen ...

Ugh.

Not pretty.

Not what I'm committed to in the world.

I resolved to create better post-work habits and tonight, I kept my word.

Tonight I came home, cooked some food, chatted with my roommates. I did some yoga, listened to some greatย public radio, and worked on the epic paper chain installation I'm creating in my bedroom.

Sitting here on my bed, I feel energized. I got off work 3 hours later today than I did on Thursday (I worked 1-7 today) and yet it feels like this evening has been much longer, more productive, and more enjoyable.

I have hope that I'll maintain this new pattern of behavior.

Not guaranteed, though, especially when you consider:

It's ten thirty, I'm getting ready for bed and can you believe it?

After those days, after writing this post, I'm still seriously asking myself:

"Should I watch an episode before I go to bed?".