Ninja Failure

It occurs to me that there are two kinds of failure: the kind I design, and the kind I don't. I like to think that I'm good at this first kind, that I'm an entrepreneurial person, that I've internalized the wisdom of failing myself into something that works. How do you double your success? You triple your failure. 10,000 ways how not to make a lightbulb. The whole bit. That's the failure I'm good at - the kind I design, the kind I anticipate.

Then ... there's the stuff I would never design. Divorce, bankruptcy, heartbreak. Or in my case, maybe, dissapointing my parents, flunkimg out of college, getting fired, ruining a friendship. That's the big stuff that feels like it would end my life.

This stuff I'm nowhere near cool enough to deal with - I still run kicking and screaming from this stuff.

In the end, though, great stories always start with this kind of epic failure. Most of the time, it doesn't kill us.

This is ninja level failing. I want to be a ninja.